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what a morning/early afternoon! after my morning walk with sanjana (while daddy and dee were still home asleep), i came home and rushed to get ready to take him to the dentist. hair wet from the shower, carrying too many things, i went out the door to put stuff in the car. amit came out to put the stroller in, dee came out and.........shut the door behind him. it was locked. the baby was in the house. thankfully my husband found the back door still unlocked since he had taken the dog out back this morning. one crisis avoided.
dee was more sensitive at the dentist than usual. his tooth was so loose but he did not want them to pull it. i tried to let him come to the conclusion that it was the best option but he wasn't budging so i made the choice for him. he was so dramatic and doing this faux cry. ten minutes later he was like "that wasn't so bad".
then off to the library where i tried to keep an eye on dee, maneuver the stroller and hold about 20 books which i had to get in line for (i usually use self check out) because i had past due fines to pay. i found out deepak is big enough for his own library card so we signed him up for one.
he is SO proud of his missing tooth and his new library card. i checked out my books on my card and he used his card for his. how could he possibly be big enough for missing teeth and library cards! he was just my little baby boy!
there is solace in knowing that while so many phases have been completed with him, i now get to have those experiences with sanjana, my littlest, little one. still makes me tear up though.
after the library and the call to dad to tell him about his tooth and card, we went to meet friends (kate & kids) at pump it up. after going thru the obstacle course with her son she said to me, "isn't this one of those days where you just LOVE being a stay at home mom?"
i'm so emotional i nearly cried on the spot, but yes, yes it was one of those days. most days are. but still some days i want to pull my hair out. then we have mom's night and i'm over it. ;)
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this is a copy of a note i typed to myself in the hospital. yes i was so on my mac while i was in labor!
checked into the hospital at 8pm. got changed into a gown, filled out paperwork. got an iv and a heartbeat and contraction monitor put on.
dr davis came after 9pm and broke my water. was having minor contractions even before the pitocin, a tad stronger since the pitocin has been
turned on but nothing too bad yet. they are strong for sure but i'm kind of laughing thru them because i know what is coming. it's 5 minutes to 11pm. my nurse's name is kayla and she is amazing. she's funny and caring and i feel
so lucky to be in this hospital. i asked so many questions that spurred from my experience of having dee and this hospital is so different. they are
so into family bonding, even if i have a c-section they will make sure i get to nurse my baby girl right away.
i am scared! but i am much more calm than when i arrived. i can't wait to hold our daughter in my arms. i can't wait for my mom and deepak to meet
her.
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my birth story as recalled ten days postpartum.
by midnight the contractions were noticably stronger. i was able to breathe and relax into them. i told myself in 1 hr i would consider the epidural. the contractions were becoming harder. i tried sitting in a chair, rocking my hips, nothing helped. i only found comfort in leaning into amit. 1am passed and the contractions were strong enough for me to get loud. i groaned loudly into them, still putting off the epidural. the external fetal heartbeat monitor wasn't staying on so an internal monitor was placed on sanjana'a head. this part was extremely painful combined with my continuing contractions.
around 2am i decided to give in and have the epidural. the anesthesiologist dr. t was amazing and sweet, even though it took over half an hour to place the epidural. each attempt required another shot of local. i was having strong contractions the entire time. as soon as it was placed, i had a few more contractions and then relief. i went to sleep, i so needed it, i was exhausted. amit took a nap too.
prior to the epi, my cervix was determined to be at only 4cm. we had quite a way to go and it felt like things were progressing so slowly. in the morning kayla came to say her shift was ending and she wished me luck. my new labor nurse was mary. when my cervix was examined at 8:30am by dr. davis he said "good news, you're 8cm" i couldn't believe it, but i also knew it was no guarantee that we'd avoid a c-section. he said i'd need to progress to 10cm by 10:30am. i started to feel pressure on my bottom, the epidural dulled it but it was definitely there.
at 9:20 i was 10cm! mary said it was time to start pushing. she told me to take a quick breath in, push while amit counted to ten, quick breath out, quick breath in an do it again two more times. she said i was moving the baby down the birth canal! i pushed with each contraction, sanjana's heartrate was rising above the desired level. mary went to call dr. davis. she took quite awhile. i was sure they were preparing for a c-section. amit and i continued to work together and he counted and loved me thru each contraction and series of pushes. when mary returned she couldn't believe how much progress we'd made.
dr. davis came and was so excited for us. it seemed like in no time there was a mirror in the room and we could see our daughter's head crowning. it was unbelievable. what i'd wanted for all these years, another child, a vaginal delivery, it was happening. i pushed and pushed until he said with the next contraction not to push. her head was out! he turned her shoulder and i heard him say "can we have a warm blanket?" i knew she was about to be on my tummy! she was fully delivered and placed on me while they cleaned her up. we heard her cry! i was so overwhelmed, it was unbelievable, amazing and has changed my life forever.
her 1 minute apgar was 8 and her 5 minute apgar was 9. when she was wiped off she was placed on my chest and she was just calm and content to be with her mama. i was so full of joy, i still am. she was weighed at 7.3 lbs, 21.5 inches long and a 13.5 inch head. she was beautiful and amazing. she was given a bath and i dressed her in a gown.
shortly after delivery amit went home to get mom and deepak to meet the newest addition to our family.
everyone in the hospital was so positive and supportive. kayla came back that evening and was my postpartum nurse for a short while before she had another laboring mother to attend to. she walked in and said the first thing the head nurse told her when she came in was how everyone was amazed at the successful vbac. everyone was sure i would end up in surgery. kayla called me a rock star-which was great for my ego, lol, other nurses congratulated me on what they called a great accomplishment. it was such a positive experience, i don't ever want to forget how it made me feel. but i want to use the energy in moving forward. i have been so blessed with two amazing children. it truly is overwhelming. my heart could just burst.
