Twice Blessed

ok, i just have to throw it out somewhere where it won't get caught!

deepak wants to go to overnight camp this summer! i'm happy that he's brave enough to go, he's such a mama's boy but then i thought of his room empty for a whole week and i just burst into tears. i wish he wanted to do the first timer camp that is just 3 days but he wants to go the full week.

what if he's scared, super homesick or hates it?!?! a friend of his from tae kwon do is going after i told his mom about it so he'd know someone at least. but a week! i will just miss him soo much, how can he possibly be big enough for away camp already! i have tears streaming down my face just writing this!

amit and my mom are really nervous and seem reluctant so i have to advocate for deepak because he wants this so i can't let them know how worried i am too. so i'm pretending the whole thing is no big deal when HELLO i'm the mother, no one is more nervous about sending him off than i am.

i'm on the registration page and i just can't click submit. of course i'm letting him go, it's an amazing opportunity and experience (one that my parents could not have afforded me as a child) and look how amazing the camp site is, but he's my baby. i don't want him to see my anxiety over it but how can i not just sob when i drop him off!

he'll be ok, right Universe??????????????????????????